Hey papa. Another Thursday. Another day of me thinking about you. 7 weeks today papa you went away. 7 weeks ago my world and heart broke into a zillion pieces. I wish I knew when this stopped hurting so much. I wish I knew when I'd stop crying about you being gone. Every day since June 17th I've cried. I know, enough tears already, huh? Just a thought of you or looking at your pictures, which I now have all over the house and on my computers as desktop backgrounds, or just wishing that I could talk to you about something, or even when mom calls to tell me something and I know how bad she wishes you were here so she could tell you makes me break down and cry. There are the days I've been busy and I get through the whole day and I haven't cried and then when I finally stop and am doing nothing and stop and think of you.. I cry. Crying's not a bad thing. It's a just what I do now thing.
I went to Krystal's today and talked to the manager. I think it may be good if it all works out. She said she could give me full time days and will help me work towards master cashier. When I had first talked to her, I was just gonna work part time but after all my soul searching and pondering and ya know, all that we talked about last night. I decided, with help and advice from the ppl who love me, to go for it. I filled out the application and there is this crazy test I have to take. Putting things I find important in order and there is a trick to it. How you rank them somehow shows them what kind of person you are. I wasn't able to take the test today but when I get back from Kansas I'm supposed to go see her again. She said once I pass the test I will be able to start. :)
Mom had her test today. Thanks for being with her. She was nervous going in but she said it wasn't too bad. I think it's cuz you were there to hold her hand. We will find out on Monday what they found, if anything. They've got to find something cuz the way she described her leg, oy! We are thinking good thoughts though, right? I've already told her that if she has to have surgery I'm going to be there. She also heard from Gene White. She has an appointment on Tuesday with him. She is hoping he has good news. I'm gonna be there to go to both appointments with her. Let you know what happens.
Rob's first day back was Ok I guess. He complained of course about every little thing but Rob wouldn't be Rob unless he was complaining about something. He has good classes so I hope he just enjoys them and applies himself and doesn't let all the high school drama and BS get to him. I keep telling him in 5 years none of what is happening in high school is gonna matter. He doesn't believe me but he will find out soon enough.
I probably better go. I still need to get my bag packed for my trip. I hope everything goes OK tomorrow. You know I hate to fly. Also hoping my flight doesn't get cancelled either direction. Talk to God for me, k? I love you daddy. (forehead kiss) talk to you in a little bit. <3
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