April 22

Hey papa.. I need a hug from you in the worst way. Everything lately has been so crappy. Could just be a slump.. I don't know. Just bad day after bad day. I think the world has officially gone crazy. Where you are is probably the safest place. Watching down from Heaven at the the stupidity going on here. Pretty soon I will be gently nudging my baby bird out into this crazy world and I'm scared to death for him. I mean, going to mom's for the summer isn't hardly the entire world I know.. but it is away from his safety net of his mom n dad and his bedroom. He'll be doing things on his own for the most part with grandma there for guidance but still no mom and dad. That has to be exciting and maybe a little scary for him. 

We had the stupidest, rudest customers today and how I so wanted to tell them to where to go but of course I can't. We were busy from like 8 then on the rest of the day. Had a cook that was so freaking slow and all she kept saying was, I'm trying  slowly but surely.. that was the problem, the slow part. We had a screen full of orders and she was going at a snail's pace. We eventually got the orders out, customers were of course peeved but what else could we do? I just don't get why she can't give us help on Sundays. Makes no sense to me. Just makes me really mad. I'm not my pleasant self on Sundays, especially Sundays like today. I will talk to my boss tomorrow and see if she will change things. She probably won't but doesn't hurt to try. 

I worked on Boo's graduation announcements yesterday. I think I have all the ones I wanna send out ready. I need to get some addresses but there the same as ready to go out. I so wish you could be here for graduation but guess the Lord didn't see fit. I remember us talking about it, you were down here on one of your visits, I think the last one when you brought me home that May. I asked you when it was time for Rob's graduation if you'd come and you told me, I'd like to but just depends if the Lord sees fit. I know that you'll still be there but just wish it were in person. We're gonna check and see if it's going to be recorded so mom can see it. Makes me sad she's not gonna get to come cuz of work but I know she would if she could. Wish she could just tell the big boss she has to be gone and they will need ppl to cover the store. If it were only that easy. If the school doesn't record it, I'll try my best to with my phone or with our camera. I just hope we get good seats. They don't have tickets to it and anyone can go so I'm sure parking and seating is going to be at a premium and a nightmare! We're gonna get there as early as we can.
I don't know a whole lot else. I'm really tired so I guess I'm gonna go watch some tv before I go to bed. I love you dad. (forehead kiss) I miss you sooooooo much. And I still need a hug. Talk to you in a little bit. <3

April 8

Hey papa.. Happy Easter! I want thank you for shining down on me this morning. It was so nice to see you first thing. Oh, how I miss you! So, how was Easter in Heaven? I bet just miraculous. My Easter was kinda dull.. I had to work most the whole day so it was just work. We luckily weren't that busy which was really nice for a change. The past few Sundays we've been getting our booties handed to us cuz we've been short handed as usual. Today we were a little over staffed which means, wasted labor.. but also means.. not as much work. We had our Easter dinner yesterday cuz I had to work today. Baked ham, scalloped potatoes, green beans and cake. We had Freddie over, who is a regular customer of ours, but has become friends with Shaun n me. He's harmless. A little gross.. cuz he doesn't bathe regular but he's a'ight. Just smells like a sweaty ashtray.. LOL!! Yep.. gross!  He had been with us cuz we had to go to our other place and finish some stuff out there so we can hopefully get our deposit back. We really need it back too. Would sure help.

I'm having a bit of a tussle within myself cuz my stepson is an atheist and has started going to meetings and stuff and on his facebook page today has a whole bunch of pictures about Zombie Jesus and Zombie Jesus day.. just horrible pictures. I get he believes what he does, and I believe what I do.. it just offends me.. which I guess as an atheist is his goal. I the same as blocked him but I hate to cuz I'll miss out on pics of Liam, Shaun's grandson. So, I don't know what to do. He was raised Mormon, but his mom committed suicide when he was a teenager and since then he's struggled with what is true. He believes if God was real he wouldn't have taken his (adopted) mom.. he doesn't get she made a choice, God didn't. And it also breaks my heart cuz he's raising Liam atheist. I think that's just wrong. Liam should be given the choice. Given all the facts and let him decide when he's of age to do so. 

I don't know much else.. I gotta go to bed soon cuz I gotta be up at 5 so I guess I'll end this short. I love you dad. Miss you more than a million.. wish so much you were here. I was thinking today if you were that you and mom may be planning your spring trip here to spend a few days with us.. given of course mom could get time off. Or maybe you'd come alone this year, who knows. I guess we never will. Best go. I love you dad.. (forehead kiss)  Talk to you in a little bit. <3