December 20

Hi papa. Mom and Auntie have arrived! Aunt Norma brought mom down cuz she hit a deer last week. Did quite the doozy to her car but thank the heavens she's OK. Mom will be here for 3 weeks, thru Christmas and New Years, auntie must go home tomorrow. :(   She brought Snick too. He's getting old papa. I hope he has several years left but sadly I'm not so sure. He's such a sweet boy. 

I don't know a lot. Work is going OK. I'm so liking it daddy. Thru Christmas I have 40 hours but the week after I drop to 31. :( But I'm still gainfully employed and still gonna do my best. I think they like me well enough. If they drop below 30 ima talk to Cindy and see if I can get more by any chance. Joe is having a tough time at his work. Lack of communication. Other managers are stealing money. The GM doesn't do her job. They are incredibly short handed. He wants to quit so bad but he knows he doesn't have many other options at this point. He gets so mad and says he's had enough and wants to quit but then he'll calm down and tries again. I'm proud of him that he keeps trying but I know how awful fast food is. I wish so bad that the higher ups knew what Trish n Sam were doing. They take about $200 every day. By doing voids mainly. Trish has a drug problem and will sometimes keep the deposit longer than she should so she can use that money to get her pills. Then when Matt screams about a missing deposit she hurries n gets it in the bank and says she forgot. I wanna tell them, him, someone but it's not my place. Joe was so mad the other day that he told me to tell him but I didn't. 

I don't know much more. Just living life and being happy. I miss you papa. So much. I love you. (Forehead Kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. 

November 22

Hi daddy. Doing good. Wish I could call you, see you instead of just feel you around me, think about you. Memories are all we got left and they are some very wonderful ones. I'm thankful for every minute we got to spend together. Every time I saw you I was convinced it was the last time. I'm glad I kept your voicemails too. I'm really liking it at Walmart. It's so fun. I thought it'd be harder than it is but its so easy. There are a few things I'm still learning but I'll get it. 

Mom is heading to Richard's this week for Thanksgiving. Hope she has a good time. Hope he's nice to her. I told him he's basically dead to me. I'm so done with him. He's such a pompous ass. I know you guys would rather we just get along but hard to do when he asks like he's superior when he's clearly not. He acts like he has this big important secret life when he's just a maintenance man for the school district that has a wife and kids. He tells mom he doesn't want me in his business. HA! Like he has any business I'd want to be in. What happened to just knowing your brother/sister was OK, just being family. I was thinking back and I think since he lived in Liberal right before he got with Traci, he was dating this black girl, is when things got weird with him n I. There's only so many times you can make amends before you say heck with it. Ridiculous he's like that anyway, that you have to walk on egg shells just right to be on his good side. It is what it is. I still have a brother, named Brian. He can be a jerk and talk incessantly at times about nothing but I love him. 

I have to work on Thanksgiving. Don't think it's gonna be fun but it's money. I like the lady in HR. Her name is Cindy. She gave me some extra hours for this next week. She thinks I can go far if I apply myself. Said maybe by summer I can be a CSM. Idk, right now I'm just enjoying being a cashier. Don't know much else. I miss you papa. I love you. (forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. 

November 12

Hi daddy. Been a bit since I wrote you. I started a new job. I'm at Walmart now. Hopefully my last stop for a while. A long while. So far I'm loving it, it is so much fun. Ask me again in 6 months. Heck, 6 weeks. Hopefully I'll say the same thing. Me n Joe are doing great. I love you daddy. (Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. 

September 30

Hi daddy. How are you? I'm doing good. Work is there. Deanna is ready to move me up but Joe doesn't want me to be a mgr there so idk what ima do or what will happen. He wants me to find a job over here in our area. I'd like that too but I'm not gonna even consider it until after I go see mom. Things around here are ok. Joe and I are great. He got promoted to assistant manager Monday. He's worked almost 24 hrs in two days. He did 11 yesterday get got called back in for another hour, then today he works just over 10 hrs. I just hope he can handle the hours, the stress, the stuff that needs to be done here for Denny. Doesn't run himself thin. I gotta get used to him having to close a lot. He's got 4 closes this week outta his 5 shifts. So not fair, there's other mgrs but two of them are mother and daughter, what mommy does, daughter soon does the same. Meaning Joe gets the short end of the stick all the time cuz of them. 

I so wish you had got to meet Joe and he could have gotten to know you. Daddy, you'd love him. He works so hard for us, takes such good care of us. He's into carpentry and you two would have gotten along famously. The Lord sure blessed me with a wonderful husband. We leave each other notes some days when we won't see each other cuz of our schedules..mine today simply said I love you, have a great night at work. His said, I'm special and the reason he's moving up the ladder. Not those exact words but you get the point. Made me tear up, to have someone that loves me like he does. Never had that before. It feels wonderful. I sure miss you, I wish I could call you. See you, hug you. 

I'm worried about Jake. He's been sleeping a lot the last few days, sleeping in the oddest places. Behind the front door. In the bathtub. In front of the refrigerator. I really hope he's ok, I wish it didn't cost so much to go to the vet. I know if I took him they'd want to run blood tests, etc and we can't afford that. All I can do is put it in God's hands. Past my bedtime. I love you dad. (Forehead kiss) talk to you in a little bit. 

September 8

HI papa. Nothing really going on. Work ok. Things with Joe are still great. Around the apartment is going ok. Some ppl getting evicted. That's the part I like. When they think they know more than me. And I'm like boom...holla! Joe justs goes day to day, doesn't bother him who does what. I try to keep Denny's rules in force. We've been here almost three years. Kinda nice to be setting roots again. I thought my life would always be what it was. Miserable. Never imagined I could be this happy. Always wanted to be and now I am.

Planning on going to mom's next month. It'll be for Aunt Norma n Uncle Al's 50 anniversary. I guess there's a big to do. I wasn't exactly invited but I'm going, I'm so excited all the family is gonna be there n they can meet Joe. Wish things were different and we'd be celebrating yours n mom's 50th soon. But there will be great celebration again some day. Better than a 50th anniversary. Bubby is/was visiting mom this past weekend. He called and told me mom needed me. Said her house needs me. I told him it was mom's business how she keeps her house. If I was 3 hours instead of 6-1/2 I'd possibly be able to make it up there more often but being 6.5 away and having a man that worries about me like he does, it'd be an issue. He doesn't like me going places, especially out of town, without him. I'll see when I go up there how things are. If mom needs me, she'll tell me. I think. 

I don't know much else. Won't keep ya. I'm sure you got a big fish to catch or something to do. I love you so much daddy. Miss you too. Some days are better, some are harder but I always miss you. (Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit.

August 21

Hi daddy...

Love n miss you, (forehead kiss). Talk to you in a little bit. 

August 3

Hi dad. How I wish I could just call you instead. But this is all we get. Everything is going ok. Andy came over last night and told us his dad died, I felt bad for him.  I know how awful I felt when I suddenly lost you. Death is so sudden and unforgiving, when it's your time, that's it, ready or not. Andy was close to his dad but I don't know how close. He lost his mom when he was a teenager. To be 27 and without both parents. Wow. Sad. Andy isn't my favorite person. He comes over too much and is a mooch but Joe calls him friend. Can't go against him. He said his dad didn't have life insurance so they don't know what they are going to do. I told Joe him getting life insurance is a priority. I'll be up a creek if I suddenly lose Joe. :( 

I don't know much else. My new job is going ok. I hate the drive but I'm getting full time, decent pay for now and I somewhat like the ppl I work with. When school starts again we'll be in so much trouble cuz we have no help but high school kids right now. I had requested my birthday off but so did about 6 other ppl. Not for my birthday but for a concert and one of the other girls it is her birthday weekend. She's the 16th. So I told Deanna I'd work until 1 or 2 if it'll help her. She appreciated that. I'm gonna be 43. Joe has to work that day anyway so I may as well work a few hours. I'm also gonna ask her if I can maybe go to 4-10 hour days or 3-10s and 2-5s when school starts. Idk if she'll let me or not. 

Mom is ok. She keeps busy at the laundry mat. Seems to like it. I think she likes working with auntie more than the laundry mat. I think she's enjoying being retired but I know she misses you a lot. Keep an eye on her daddy. I know you do. :) She got Snick to start eating tomatoes. I think it's amusing all the veggies she's got him eating, never seen a dog eat raw veggies like he does. At first I was like no way when she told me, then I seen him do it. I was like No Way! Lol!! 

I love you. I miss you daddy. (Forehead kiss) talk to you in a little bit. XOXO. 

July 13

It's like technically the 13th but still the 12th to me cuz I'm still up. It's like almost 2. We're off tomorrow so we are being bad n staying up. Cuz...why not?! Lol. Hi daddy! Hope you are ok. I miss you so much. Mom was here all last week. It was great to have her here. You'd be so proud of her. I think she's lost enough weight but she looks great. She's happy...or appears to be. She's enjoying being retired, has made some new good friends in Robinson and that's good. We didn't do a whole lot while she was here but it was nice to be together. We did get to see bubby together, and that was kewl. The first time the 3 of us have been together since 2011. It was just for a little while but it was nice. The rest of the week Joe and I just worked. I started my new job at Taco Bell. I think it's gonna be ok. Have to learn a new way of doing things but it's nice to be with Deanna and Shay again. It's a drive too but I think it's gonna be worth it, I kept a good attitude all week and my week was awesome. So, I suppose going that way every day maybe...just maybe...:) idk, but it's worth the try. I met the area leader and he seems alright, willing to give me a shot at management so ima do my best not to mess that up. 

Joe is now running the store on his own. Both nights he met a small glitch but I know he'll figure it out. He's just made silly mistakes, and he will. I know I did when I first started running the show. It's nerve wracking and you feel the pressure to make sure you don't forget anything. But I know he's gonna be a great manager. I just wish he'd go in there with the I'm your boss attitude and not try being all buddy buddy with some of them. I know he's worked his way up and probably is friends with some of them but I just don't want it to bite him in the end. They are talking about making Joe assistant manager. Which means salary and benefits. Cha-Ching! And if I get shift manager, we'll be doing real good again. :) I don't know much else. Oh, have you seen Charles Parnell? Mom was sad to find out he passed. I'm sure you'll make him feel at home. I love you dad. (Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. ~XO

July 3

Hi dad. It's July 4th eve. Sitting here listening to all the idiots blowing up their money. Should be stopping soon, hopefully. I know how much you n mom just 'loved' this time of year. Poor Snickee. I know he'll be scared silly. Mom n him will be here Sunday. For the week. :) I'm glad she's coming. Cuz when it's all said n done all you get together is time and memories. I don't know what we'll do but we'll do it together. Give her some time away from laundry. Blecky laundry. I wish I could go see her instead but I can't. No fundage. Plus we gotta work. 

Ima start a new job this next week. I'm kinda excited. Ima be working with my old boss from Krystal n this girl I used to work with too. Gonna be a team trainer at Taco Bell. Idk what that means or entails but it's a new adventure as mom might say. She hired me on the spot, soon as I saw her. Only downfall is I gotta drive to Ooltewah which is about 20 minutes from here. Keep an eye on me, ok? Cuz it's all interstate driving. I hate the interstate. But things just aren't working at Zaxbys. I just don't fit in, hard as I try. I'm quiet when I'm around ppl I'm not comfortable around so all day I don't say much except to the customers and the extremely few ppl who do talk to me. Makes for a tension filled day. I've had a headache since Wednesday when my boss pulled me aside and told me she won't give me the days off I asked for to spend with mom. I asked what can we do, she said that's not the discussion. Then said maybe you should just spend the week with your mom. Ok...fine I will. :)  I was gonna see if there was something we could work out but Deanna offered me the job n hired me so hasta la vista baby..I won't be back. I have a terrible habit of totally incinerating every bridge after I cross them. Idk, might have to work on that. Lol. Idk daddy. Just get tired of being walked on and I hate confrontation (I cry, stammer, get embarrassed cuz I'm so mad) so it's easier for me to say to heck with it and walk away n never look back. I know it's not the most mature way to handle things but it's my way. 

Ima have to check out my car, the tires n belts n fluids n all, make sure I'll be ok since I'll definitely need my car for work. My schedule is most likely going to be for a little while anyway, 5am-3pm...idk for sure yet. I go on Tuesday n do paperwork n she told me I was gonna be on the next schedule. The weeks run from Wednesday to Tuesday. Kinda different. Just hope it lasts for a long time this time cuz ima bout tired of trying to find jobs where I'm comfortable n feel like I belong. Or am wanted there. I know Deanna will take good care of me. :) She always did at Krystal. 

Idk much else. Me n Joe are still great, he's still treating your baby girl like a queen. I get stupid thoughts n worries in my head about him leaving me or breaking my heart but he stops me and tells me I'm being silly. That he loves me and ain't leaving. :) Idk why I think like that, I guess cuz S did. I think Joe is absolutely adorable and positively wonderful, so I worry someone will take away my happy. Things are going so good I worry something is gonna happen to ruin said happiness. But I also know Joe is pretty crazy about me too and I'm being silly. 

Oh...Joe has been training for what he thought was shift manager, one of the other SMs n him were talking the other night n she slipped n said something about them training him for assistant manager! He was like, What?! N she said oops. I wasn't supposed to say anything. So then he got to thinking about things and realizes now the things he's been doing aren't shift mgr things, but asst mgr stuff. I am so so proud of him! He's been working 5-2s this week. He thinks he's gonna keep doing those hrs..idk..but if that's the hours I get it'll be great cuz our sleep schedules will be pretty much the same n we'll be able to be together in our off time. Sometimes I worry he'll tire of spending so much time with me but he tells me things like, there's no place else he'd rather be. Good...cuz me either! 

Guess ima go to bed. I love you daddy. (Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. 

June 17

1826 days since you had to say See you Later. I was hoping to make it thru the day tear free but didn't make it. I made mom something real special. I sent it today. I'll let you know what she says. Didn't do much today, after I mailed mom's package I worked on a curtain for Joe. Making it out of scraps from his quilt. I'll finish it tomorrow. Just hanging with Joe now watching a movie. I miss you so much. I wish 5 years ago hadn't happened but God took you for a reason even though we don't know what it is. I love you. (Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. 

June 15

Hi papa. In 2 days it'll be 5 years since you had to go. In that time a lot has changed. Some ways for the better, some ways not so...you having to go was the worst. I wanted to crawl in your casket n go with you. Definitely crushed my heart losing you. Took a while to heal n in ways it'll never fully heal. The pain of losing you never goes away. We've all experienced a lot of loss. Mom, her best friend n confidante, the home she shared with you (I think she had to, to heal)...us kids, a great father n friend. Personally, I lost my house, jobs (I quit them), Shaun (bad n good loss), my relationship with Rob (that was a group effort)...but I've gained a wonderful husband that truly loves me, a different perspective on life - how very precious it is, to tell the ones you love you love them. Always. To not take things so seriously, auntie's perspective to not sweat the small stuff cuz frankly it's all small stuff..Joe goes by that too. :) I'm happy again n being happy feels great cuz I thought my life was always gonna be what it was. (Dull n boring, mundane, constantly stressful n feeling like my life was at a dead end.) I feel at peace being with Joe n I'm always happy to come home after work, I used to hate to leave work cuz I knew S would be in a mood or put me in one. I still to this day don't understand why you had to go but one sweet day you n I will be able to sit down together again n you can explain it all to me. I always thought you were immortal, wished to the heavens you were. You were my hero, I looked up to you n yes, thought you walked on water. I know you weren't perfect but you were to me. This time of year is still a little hard for me but I'm doing ok daddy. I know you walk with me n watch over us. I still feel you around n see you at times too...in the smile of some customer that comes in, or when I see an old guy wearing overalls, plaid shirt n ball cap. The smell of diesel fuel still makes me smile, crazy I know. Joe is taking good care of your baby girl. Sometimes I think he gets tired of hearing me talk about how wonderful you were but no part of me cares if it does although it does hurt my feelings some. He didn't have the relationship with his parents as I did/do so I don't think he really gets it. Idk. 

I don't know what I'll do Wednesday to remember you, I was hoping to have lunch with Brian but he's not gonna be this way. Or maybe go up n see mom but don't have the time or money. Joe has to work..so idk...I'll think of something. Just don't wanna spend the week crying about it as I did years past. Losing you certainly wasn't a happy time but I also know you wouldn't want us to continue crying about losing you but to be happy n smile about the wonderful memories we created together n I promise I'll do my best, even though in this moment my chin is quivering n I'm fighting to keep the tears in. I love you daddy so much. Miss you every day. (Forehead kiss) talk to you in a little bit. 

June 1

Hi papa. It's been a minute since I've last messaged you. All is well. I'm no longer at Bilo but it's all good. I'm working at a place called Zaxby's now. It's a chicken wing place but they sell other stuff chicken related. I was just beyond miserable at Bilo n something had to change. Just got to my breaking point n walked out. Zaxby's is alright so far. They have a lot of crazy rules n methods but I guess that's what makes it work. It's the cleanest place I've ever worked, one of the busiest too. The place is always busy, from the minute it opens. Not getting bookoo hours but I'm employed n for that I'm thankful. Joe got promoted to mgr at his work, finally. I'm so proud of him. He looks so good in his mgr shirt. He's still getting trained but pretty much knows what he's doing. 

I don't really know much. Shaun told me he's got emphysema. Idk if I should be sad or what I'm to feel. All the years of smoking n not taking care of himself caught up with him. Rob has already told me he's going to stay with Judy when S does pass. Hurts my feelings but Rob is an adult now n I can't make him do anything. Rob is still working at the college, should be getting full time hours soon. Then he'll be able to take some classes for free. That'll be cool if he goes thru with it. 

Mom is doing OK I suppose. She just got back home from visiting Kansas. Guess she saw the usual ppl, most of them. Spent time with Richard. He's still a pompous ass. He told mom he doesn't talk to me cuz I put my nose in his business. Fuck that. Like his life is that secret n special. As if. What he fails to realize is I don't give a crap what's going on with him n his life. And he fails to understand life is too short to be a dick n let stupid shit keep you apart from family. I don't wanna be 'in his business', I just wanna talk to my brother again. Bully for him, he bought a house. So what. He could at least be civil n say hello, how ya been. It's fine, really. He stopped talking to me years ago, I should just accept it n move on. I told mom best I can do is be related to him. She wants us kids to get along n all that but it's kinda hard when Richard has this high n mighty shit don't stink my life is so private n important and I'm more entitled than the other two attitude. Fuck that. Who needs him. I do have a brother, his name is Brian and I love him dearly. I've seen bubby a few times this year, which is good. He gets this way more often it seems.      

I found this yummy peanut butter pie recipe he loves, you'd have loved it too. But when he comes we make several n he takes them back with him to his work n he sells them. His boss loves it too. Me n Joe jokingly said we should make pies n go thru truck stop parking lots n sell them. Give the drivers a bite of home. Apple, cherry, chocolate, peanut butter, coconut. Just little ones, like 5 or 6 inch pies. But we'll probably never do it. I'd never do it by myself. Don't know much else, in 16 days it'll be 5 years since you left us. Five long years. How I wish I was sending you messages like a do with mom n you'd respond. I miss you daddy. There's days I could really use one of your bear hugs. I miss those. I love you. (Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. 

April 20

I miss you like crazy. Some days are better than others, this is an other. Work isn't going OK. I'm hating my job n hate that I feel like that. This was to be the job to end all jobs. I was so excited to start working there. The thrill is gone. My boss sucks. I got put on 11-830s n yes, I was mad but I've since gotten over it cuz it's not changing n I'm closing with Daniel so it is what it is. But I made mention of some things I noticed as a deli lead that need attention n told Tim about them n it got flipped back on me n I got blamed n told it was because of my attitude and to figure it out. So he doesn't want to help me and the other deli leads aren't helping so I figured it out n just do the things myself. One mainly being the dang dishes. If we don't keep up on them thru the day at night there are so many you're doing dishes for hours n no one but me, Daniel n sometimes Kaitlyn do the dishes. I told Tim that needed to change n he tells me he's not a babysitter n wasn't going to help change it. When you're getting no help from the boss what do you do, go over the boss's head, which I have. I talked to Carol the other night n told her of my plight n she told me she emailed Bill, THE boss n told him what's up n I'm to get with him n see what can be done. I told her I wanted to be transferred to another department within the store or transferred to another store. She doesn't want to lose me, said it'd be a mistake if Tim let me go. We know this, right? But daddy I just can't stay there, not with Tim. Not with Kaitlyn. Kaitlyn is Tim's little pet, she chases after him like a little puppy. And the way she talks to ppl. Ugh. She makes my blood boil. I think ima go talk to the lady in charge at mission ridge store, it's about 10 minutes from here. That's the store I'd prefer to be transferred to. Idk if I can, idk if I should go over there but ima go. Joe mainly just wants me happy but I'm not feeling very supported. He says that with every job comes BS which I know but when you reach out to the boss n he snarks back, figure it out n it's because of my attitude, that's more BS than one should have to deal with. I don't wanna lose my full time n benefits but almost to the point idc if I do. Entertained the notion of going back to fast food, God help me, but I guess it's the structure n I guess, the organization of it. You know at what times you'll be busy, usually. You know at what time you need this or that done, if you get a good team it's like a well oiled machine n things just run smoothly. Not so chaotic n unorganized like it is in the deli. I could really use one of your big hugs about now. You've been in my dreams lately n idk why. It's like every night you've been there for the past few nights. You talk to me or we're walking some place...but we never get there or get to finish our conversation cuz you have to go n I wake up in tears. I miss you papa. So much. Guess I'll go. I love you daddy. (Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. XOXO. 

April 3

  Hi daddy!! It's been a while I know. Life is going good for your baby girl. Work is going OK. My boss had a meltdown a few weeks ago and I thought I had blown it but he had his fit, I had mine and we're past it. I'm on closes this week and it sucks. I'm not a closer. I'm a up with the sun opener type person. I told him too. Told him I rather hated my schedule this week. He agreed. Said it was the store manager who did the schedule. Uh huh, likely story.
   Mom was here last week. I was so glad too. Just to come home and have her sitting there was a good thing. Didn't really do much cuz we had to work but just being together was fun.  She brought Snick with her. She was convinced he was gonna come home to you while she was here cuz he was really tired and looked pathetic. Poor guy was apparently constipated. Joe took him outside and he was finally able to do the deed and was a much happier camper after that. I do think it's about his time though. Which makes me so sad cuz he's like the last thing we have besides our memories that keeps us connected to you. Joe doesn't understand how very special Snick is to me, to us. Mom saw some real pretty hearts that you can put ashes in that I think she might get so when it is time, she's going to have him cremated and put some in each of them and then the rest she'll spread on your apartment so you two can always be together.. but y'all will always be together anyway I know. Mom looks good. I think she's lost enough weight. I think she was fine the way she was before too. But she's happy and that's all that matters. I still worry about her. You know those feelings I would get when you'd come or I'd come there and then cry like a baby about leaving cuz I was scared it'd be the last time we saw each other... kinda felt that way this last time when she left.. I teared up when she pulled away cuz you never know when God is gonna be ready for you. Hopefully though it's gonna be a long, long time. I always was so happy for this older lady I used to work with at the bus barn who was in her 70s and still had both of her parents around. I thought that was hella-kewl.
  Things with Joe are still great. He makes me so happy. Our 2nd anniversary is in about 3 weeks. Best I Definitely Do I ever said. :) I wish you coulda known him and he you. You'd have loved him I'm sure. I don't know much more. I miss you daddy. If only for one more day... I'd never have let you go to the preacher's house that day.. driven the way you went.. something. But mom says, it was His plan and I suppose it was. When it's our time, it's time no matter what we do to avoid it. I love you daddy. (forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. 

January 22

Hi daddy. Everything is going splendidly. I got a promotion at work. Full time. 40 hrs a week. And benefits. Woot woot! So excited. My boss told me that he hopes to have me ready to take over my own deli in 6 months. Means I have to leave where I'm at but guess I have to to grow. I'm really really liking working at Bilo. I just don't know if I'll like wherever I'm transferred to. Bridge to cross when I get there. I don't really know much. Joe n I are great. Crazy in love with him I am. I miss you. I love you. (Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. XOXO. 

January 9

It's officially January 10 now in my world but in yours it's still the 9th. Happy birthday daddy! I've so much to tell you but I gotta go for now. Bbiaw. Love you. 

January 1 2015

HAPPY NEW YEAR DADDY!! It's 2015. Last night we had a little party, just a few ppl from Joe's work. At first I wasn't excited but I ended up having fun. I had too much to drink but I was safe here in my home. Don't know a whole lot. Hope for a lot to happen in the good this year. We'll see. Joe n I are great n I'm the happiest I've ever been. I'm good daddy. I love you and miss you so. (Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. 

Our last conversation was a good one. But I'd have only wished it had lasted longer. XO-Clyde