November 22

Hi daddy. Doing good. Wish I could call you, see you instead of just feel you around me, think about you. Memories are all we got left and they are some very wonderful ones. I'm thankful for every minute we got to spend together. Every time I saw you I was convinced it was the last time. I'm glad I kept your voicemails too. I'm really liking it at Walmart. It's so fun. I thought it'd be harder than it is but its so easy. There are a few things I'm still learning but I'll get it. 

Mom is heading to Richard's this week for Thanksgiving. Hope she has a good time. Hope he's nice to her. I told him he's basically dead to me. I'm so done with him. He's such a pompous ass. I know you guys would rather we just get along but hard to do when he asks like he's superior when he's clearly not. He acts like he has this big important secret life when he's just a maintenance man for the school district that has a wife and kids. He tells mom he doesn't want me in his business. HA! Like he has any business I'd want to be in. What happened to just knowing your brother/sister was OK, just being family. I was thinking back and I think since he lived in Liberal right before he got with Traci, he was dating this black girl, is when things got weird with him n I. There's only so many times you can make amends before you say heck with it. Ridiculous he's like that anyway, that you have to walk on egg shells just right to be on his good side. It is what it is. I still have a brother, named Brian. He can be a jerk and talk incessantly at times about nothing but I love him. 

I have to work on Thanksgiving. Don't think it's gonna be fun but it's money. I like the lady in HR. Her name is Cindy. She gave me some extra hours for this next week. She thinks I can go far if I apply myself. Said maybe by summer I can be a CSM. Idk, right now I'm just enjoying being a cashier. Don't know much else. I miss you papa. I love you. (forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit.