December 30

Hi Papa.. It's been a day. That's for sure. Idiot coworkers, idiot customers, idiot ex husband, idiot tenants. Grrrr.. having a Monday yes I am. Let's start with coworkers, there's this guy I work with that is also a mgr and he half asses things all the time but gets away with it cuz he's been there so long. Just irks me, nothing I can do about it but be irked so I shall be. Idiot customers, old dude comes in and orders fish, slaw and hushpuppies, I ring up a 1pc fish with slaw and extra pups. He said, I wanted 2 fish after I total it out and give him his change, I tell him it's 1.81 for the other fish, he says he wants it on one ticket so I have to do a void to get it on one ticket. The way I rang it, his total was 5.43 then changing it so its all on one ticket made it 6.02, I promise you old dude, I don't care if it costs you more cuz I tried to save you money to begin with and you didn't apparently want me to so it is what it is. Deal with it. Idiot Ex, I call to tell him I'm wiring Rob's birthday money and he says OK we'll pick it up tonight, get me the confirmation number and we'll go do it.. I do it, call to give it to him and he's asleep.. for the night and it's 630 in Utah right now. Grrrrr.. I also put the wrong payout location when I did it so I had to call and change it to Utah so he could get his money. So hopefully it'll work out. I also called Krispy Kreme out there and ordered him 20 donut holes and a large chocolate milk. Hopefully dumdum doesn't screw that up for me. And our idiot tenants.. just some I'd LOVE to see leave. Just the usual BS from them. I loathe when its time for rent to be paid and all the sorted crap stories we get every month from the same ones. It's irritating.
Mom found out her surgery is going to be on February 10th. Oh daddy. I'm so not happy about it but it is her body and her decision. I wish she could see what a beautiful person she is and how much she DOESN'T need to do the stupid surgery. I was really hoping and praying that her going to the gym would be enough for her to lose the weight she thinks she needs to lose. She weighs less than me dad. And I would never ever do that surgery. Ever. I don't like this spot and that spot on me but Joe loves every bit of me, fat or not. He makes me feel beautiful even though the rest of the world doesn't see me that way. I know that losing weight, being a certain weight, is a personal thing and I'm not knocking her for wanting to lose weight but I just don't think surgery is her answer and I can't believe the doctor would OK this. If she was 2 tons of fun and couldn't walk and talk at the same time, I'd say yeah mom go for it but she's not. She's 66 years old, should be enjoying her retirement and she's just getting into the swing of things, she should be doing fun things like the cruise she went on and going places with Auntie, her quilting. Not fretting about what she weighs. It just makes me so sad and makes me wonder what's going thru her head. The WHY, I mean a good reason why. I told her I'd put a smile on and fake it but daddy, that's gonna be hard. Makes me wanna cry. I wanted to go up to help her after she had the surgery but it'll be Valentine's weekend and I wanna be with Joe on Valentine's day. She said Auntie will be there and that's good but I wanted to be there too. I think I'm gonna go eat a worm.
A couple more hours and my Joey will be home. I wish you were around so I could really talk to you. I need a daddy hug today in the worst way. I saw a tanker today and it just hit me out of no where and I was tearing up. I miss you papa so much. A girl I work with her dad left her mom and them and he sends the girls a good morning text everyday to try to stay connected to them.. she said she could care less. If she only knew how much I wish I could get a good morning text from my dad everyday. There are some ppl who wish they could have what she doesn't appreciate. I love you dad. (forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit.

December 25

Hi papa.. Merry Christmas!!! You're spending Christmas with Jesus. It must be miraculous! I'm spending the day with Brian. Its our first Christmas together in who knows how long. He gets to be here until tomorrow afternoon. So that's kewl. I don't know a whole lot. I got a stereo for my car and this coffee pot that you can make one cup at a time. You'd have liked it. I got Joe a lot of what he wanted. He was happy which made me happy. Things at work are going OK. I'm not going anywhere though. I don't know when and if I will. She had said I'm in line for asst mgr but idk. I don't really think so. Don't really know nothing daddy. 3 Christmases without you. It sucks. I love you daddy. (Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit.