August 11, 2010

Hey Papa.. it is God awful uncomfortable in here. The a/c is on but it's been so hot it's having trouble keeping up.
Today was crappy! Mom went to her radiology appointment today. They put goo all over her leg and did an ultrasound on her leg and knee to see if anything was blocked. To see if they could figure out why her foot has remained so swollen. The girl said she didn't see anything so that's good.  Mom was in an uber grumpy mood today. She even yelled and cussed at me. I had asked her to call the lady who is supposed to be paying the essentials benefits and I said, Could you stress to her...? and mom exploded! She had told me earlier she was having a bad day and she wasn't kidding. At lunch, she had printed off this paper that this guy is gonna use the info to determine how much you are worth. Like there is a dollar amount big enough! Anyway, she was working on it and asked me how many hrs I thought you shoveled snow. She said 6 times a yr? I said, didn't it snow more than 6 times? Wrong thing to say apparently cuz she stormed off to her room. She seemed to have calmed down and went back to work after lunch. I went down to get a check to take Snick to the vet and she was looking for the letter from the essentials lady to call her. I made that comment and all hell broke loose. I started to cry because I'm worried about money. I'm relying on that money to make my house payment. Money is like non-existent for us right now since I haven't been working. It's not like I'm not there because I had nothing better to do. I've been dealing with you being gone and then I went back to work, mom got hurt, I was concerned about her and felt like I needed to be here. Was I just supposed to stay there, worry and be miserable? I thought she might need some help. After today, I think maybe staying home is what I should have done. We've apologized but my feelings are still hurt. I know, get over it. I will daddy. It's hard for me to stay mad at the ppl I love and it's not that I'm mad, my feelings were hurt. She said I had been "on her a**" and I don't feel I was. I think I was just in the line of fire cuz of her bad day. 
I took Snick to the vet today. Dr said he is still overweight. He was concerned about his fleas. We swapped out the drops for these pills called Comfortis. Its a chewable and it kills the fleas within 24 hrs and keeps working all month. Dr also said no more table food. Snick didn't like that. It's gonna be so hard not to give him any especially when he gives you the eyes and his cute little face. How can you say no to that! I just love him!! 
My birthday is in 4 days. Big whoop. Gonna go for now. Not in a good mood today. Have had a headache for two days now. Not sure why. Just want my head to quit hurting. I love you daddy. (forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. <3 I miss you!