Hey Papa.. wanna see something? Gimme a second.. see.. I got to see my friend today!! This is Maria. I'm not sure you remember her. We used to hang out in high school. She lives in Louisiana now. Even has the drawl they have down there.. like Jus-ton Wil-son.. hehe. I remember how you used to enjoy watching that silly cajun. Her mom and sons were with her. Her mom, the dear, told Maria when I got there to go get me something to eat. She said to me, you may be a little heavy but you need to eat, so go get something. What?! You haven't seen me in 22 yrs lady and that's the first thing you say to me? Reminds me of someone else's mother. I told mom when I was telling her about it that I'm going to get a t-shirt made that says, Yes, I'm well aware of my size and I don't need you to point it out. Sheesh, anyway...we only got to see each other about 30 minutes but it was so worth it. It was so great seeing her. It was the best day I've had since before losing you. I actually smiled and it felt good. Now, if I can just keep it up. Was gonna say I hadn't cried today but I did.. I was just looking for this pic here and found some of you and lost it. Why can't I get over this dad? Why can't I get to a place where I can accept things and not cry everyday? When will life stop being so darn sucky?
I'm still waiting to do the paperwork for Krystal's. Getting so tired of waiting too. I just want to get started, if I'm going to get started. If not, let me know so I can move on to something else or go back to Convergys. I'd like to at least give them a notice of some sort even if it's just hey, I won't be coming back on the 30th. I get that they are busy but seriously she can't call me and have me work on it while she is working? I'm sure it's not rocket science. I have filled out paperwork to get a job before. Why, no sir, I don't have any patience as of late. I take after mom, ya know.. :) She has little to no patience too. Uh, yes sir.. I know, it will work out if it's His will. Don was telling me that they he knows she was busy but still.. really.. the WHOLE day?? Huh.. yeah.. I heard you.. OK.. sheesh.. practicing a little patience. But remember it's only a practice run. :D LOL!
Talked to mom today. She seemed OK. She said she's able to fasten her shoe now and the swelling has gone down a whole lot. That's so good to hear. She also said Richard and them came for dinner Friday and he cooked. That's nice. Yes sir, I know that he is 'in the area' and I'm not but still. OK.. I'm being the duck.. you are sure talkative tonight daddy. :) Feels like you are right here sitting on my bed as I send this to you. I wish you were, I'd give you a great big hug and never let go. I'd get mom here on the red-eye and still be hugging you when we met her at the airport. If only, papa.. if only.
Shaun and Rob haven't been feeling good today. Shaun's had chest pains all day and his left arm has been hurting him. I kept asking if he needed to go to the hospital and he said no. Rob and I left to go see Maria and we got back and he was in bed. Rob went in Shaun's room to put the cat food in the closet, we keep it in there cuz the cats tear the bag up if we leave it on the porch, anyway, I asked him what his dad was doing and he said, he's just laying there. I said, What?! and he said, he's just laying in his bed. I hollered at Shaun and he didn't answer me but he was laying there with his eyes opened. Scared the buh-jesus outta me cuz I thought, OMG, NO!! I told him that he scared me too.. He just said, sorry. Rob came home from school yesterday feeling crappy. He called us while he was at school to ask us to bring him some allergy medicine cuz his nose was running real bad. I did but I don't think it's allergies. I mean, it could be, but today he's been real dizzy and said his head was hurting him. I don't know papa. He has till Monday to get better cuz I don't allow him to miss school. Well papa.. I don't know much else. I love you and still miss you terribly and there are days I'd love to join you but I keep putting one foot in front of the other. Can you check and see when my ticket is gonna get punched?? Does God let you see things like that? Just like to know how much longer I got here. There are still a few things I'd like to see, like Rob graduate from high school and meet Shaun's grandson and have at least one more happy birthday..key word "happy".. so OK.. I guess I'm not ready. Things I have to do still, huh? I love you (forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit <3
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