November 27

Hey Papa. Mom had to go home. :( I hate that she had to go. Thanksgiving without you was so weird. Just not the same. I kept thinking, daddy's just at home with Snickers. But I know you were here--in spirit. I wish you could have been here for real. My knives need sharpened by the way. We had such a good time with mom here. Not that we did a lot. Just hung out. She did some baking and cooked a couple meals. Yesterday took her to look at these apartments in Ringgold. Just to give her an idea. Don't think she was impressed. We did a little driving around like I when I would take you driving. Just spending time together. All I kept thinking was, will she be taken from me in 6 weeks like you were? I know dad, not happy thoughts but I still think about when you were here in May and then gone 6 weeks later. So, it's possible, even though I don't want that. When I hugged her last night before I went to bed I didn't wanna let her go. I wasn't able to see her off cuz I had to go to work. I wish I had been able to but I know that I woulda just cried some more. I didn't think I'd cry that much but I did and I have. I love her so much. She said she would be back in April. I'm holding her to it. I probably won't be able to go back to Kansas until the end of August or beginning of September. That's a long time daddy. By the time I'm able to come back your marker will have been placed and there's probably going to be grass grown over your underground apartment. I can't even begin to call it what it is. Just wanted to tell you mom went home. She'll be home tomorrow. She called me after she got to her hotel to let me know she made it safe. I wanted to call you so bad and tell you about my few days with mama but of course, I couldn't. I'm sure you are watching over her now as she stays in the hotel. Keep her safe papa. She's all I got left. Need to go to bed. I love you papa. (forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. <3