June 23

Hey Papa... I got thru the weekend of losing you almost unscathed.. of course there were tears but you were worth every one that fell. I heard something that goes something like, we don't ever get over losing ones so dear but we do get thru it. So, I guess I'm making it thru it cuz I'll never be over it. 

In other news of my world.. my work week was short cuz I was off on Sunday so I only had to mull thru 3 days. On Wednesday one of my regulars gave me most of the paper which included the classified ads and for some reason, call it fate, call it a God thing, I decided to actually read them on Wednesday night and saw an ad for O'Charley's. That place we went for my birthday when you came and surprised me. Something led me to fill out an application and something more convinced me to go to the hiring event. Well sir, I got the job. Yep, I got it!! Just walked in, waited patiently for my turn and walked out with the job. I was amazed. First time that has happened since we moved here. My first thought, was OH YEAH! My second was, what the heck did I just do?? Shaun was my first call, but didn't answer and mom was my second and she did. Had to tell my important ppl. I'm gonna be a hostess or shall I say, a guest assistant. Their new term. Lame but still.. hehe. I went later that day to the restaurant to talk to I guess the lady in charge of the hostesses. I was supposed to be filling out paperwork but she said that since I'm not starting until July 16 she just wanted to wait. I get a week's vacation from Krystal the 9th-15th so they are gonna make sure I get it. She said it would be silly to start me, have a week off then start again so meh.. ok. She's concerned that I will be working too hard cuz I work my 10 hrs at Krystal then will work like 5 there. What mom, heck, what female doesn't pull at least a 16 hr day?? You work all day then go home and work until you go to bed with laundry and housework and such. I think I can do it. I'm gonna talk to Terri and see if I can maybe get off at 2pm on Sundays if we are gonna continue having 3 cashiers. Then I can have a couple hrs to catch my breath before I have to go in. Its only gonna be like 20 hrs to start. I wanted to have a 2nd job or a backup one so there is something when they finally decide what is gonna happen to us at Krystal with our shirts and pay and such. I need to have that money but have no control over what they are gonna do. So, I'm CMoA.
I don't know much more. Shaun got home safely from his week with his mom. He said it was nice to see her, spend time with her. I wish I had the time and such to go see mom. I was thinking I'd go my week off but we can't afford it, the car needs tires and the tires it has I'm not sure are safe enough to get me there and back, the guys at the place we go said they have about 2 months left. I'd hate to get who knows how many miles down the road in the middle of no where and need help. That would be scary. Some country bumpkin psycho offer to help. No, thanks though. And I would feel bad when I left, leaving Bobby there. My little boo bear. I know he's 18 daddy but he is and always will be my boo bear. Plus I don't wanna go 2 or 3 times cuz we really, really can't afford that. I want to come see you, spend time with mom and Snick. I just can't. We need to see how much tires are so I can start saving for them. I know I need them. The ones I have are about 3 yrs old. Okey dokey. I guess I'll go for now. I love you papa. (forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. <3