July 11

Hey papa.. how are things?? I'm blah.. having one of those days, no week's where everything and everyone irritate the living crap outta me. I'm on vacation this week but it's like whoop-ee.. so far it's been a total dud. I was advised to take my vacation asap so I'd get paid for it at my current pay, which makes total sense but I am so bored and not really having any fun at all. We don't have the money to go anywhere or do anything. Judy said not to use the pool cuz we need to save our money cuz the electric bill is going to be high, which, duh.. I know. So, I'm just mulling about.. working on Rob's room this week. I got his stuff in his closet compacted down to 3 plastic containers and eliminated about a dozen boxes. As I was working on it, I'd come across things you had given him or cards you and mom had sent him, pics of him as a little kid.. made me cry. This week, this past week, you've been on my mind a lot and every time I cry or tear up.. idk why either. This isn't a momentous week or anything, nothing happened in the past that should be making me think of you like I am, but yet, there you are, on my mind. I'm also getting his ceiling fans replaced and going to hang up some posters he's been wanting to get framed. Mom got him some Scarface posters a couple years ago that we haven't been able to get up, cuz he wants them framed.. just never had the money or took the time to get the frames. Frames ended up costing about 12 bux a piece, who knew. We got one of the fans changed yesterday, going to do the other one today. Took us over 3 hours to change it, we were both so frustrated and hot and sweaty after. All I know is the kid had best appreciate it! Probably won't cuz most kids take for granted the kind things their parents do for them but I'll just bite my tongue and pretend that Rob does appreciate it.
I'm planning on getting Rob the weekend before my birthday. I want him here for my birthday. 40 is a big birthday. Mom said I'm only 32 so OK, my 32nd birthday is a big thing. Maybe not to any one else cuz well, honestly it never is but to me, wow.. who thought I'd ever make it to 40, er, 32! Shaun always puts little to no effort into my birthday so I'm not expecting anything for this one. I get a couple of cards but that's about it. I know my birthday isn't a national holiday but I don't know.. would like, just one time for my birthday to be special, awesome, memorable. Shaun said I'm the only one who can make my day special.. uh, gee, OK.
Oh, that 2nd job, I guess I'm not going to take it. I went that day to talk to the manager and do the paperwork but we didn't do the paperwork and she hasn't called me back yet so idk. BUT, my boss has been wanting to make me a shift leader and our area supervisor wouldn't approve it. He said that he didn't feel I had the right personality or that I could effectively discipline my coworkers if need be. That they'd run over me. Ray is no longer with Krystal so.. that opens the door for me now. Our new district supervisor and the CEO told the managers it's up the managers who they want to promote.. SO, that means I'm gonna get my shot. That's all I want, a shot. Idk if it's more money, hopefully so, but if so, not much. My manager also told me that she doesn't feel that the assistant manager is doing her job properly and if I get moved up that she'd possibly consider moving her out. Now, the problem with that is that Charlene is my friend. One of my dearest. So, I'm not on board for that. It could be that Terri was having a bitchy moment, idk.. but I'm not going oust my friend of her job. I told Terri, let me get to shift leader first and see if I can do it. I know, it's gonna mean a different shift and days off and I most likely won't get 3 days off anymore but I guess, OK, let's go for it. I can't be a cashier forever.. even though I do rather enjoy it and love my customers. Gonna suck losing that shift, those hours, not being able to see my favorite customers but gotta do what I gotta I guess.. so papa.. talk to the Big Guy about that for me.. and I will too.. that I can succeed at this. I told Terri what I'm scared of is letting her down and my coworkers hating me.. or not listening to me. She said I'm going to do fine and so what, what they think. I love my boss. She's one of the realest ppl I know, shoots from the hip, tells it like it is, doesn't sugar coat anything. Her only downfall is her huge heart. She lets her emotions get too much into her being an effective boss. But she is a good boss none the less.
We got a new puppy. I think you know that though. Last Tuesday we went and got her. A little beagle mix.. named her Chloe. She's a pill, and a trial. I saw this little one named Abby and we were gonna get her but on the way to get her the shelter called and said she was gone, I was so mad cuz we had asked them to hold her and told them we'd be there to get her. But, long story shortened... we ended up getting Chloe. Rob was against me getting a beagle puppy cuz of Little Girl. He said, if you want a dog that reminds you of grandpa, fine but I know it's gonna make you cry. So far, she hasn't. She's made me frustrated cuz she won't listen to us, frustrated she keeps pissing on the floor. One time she'll go to the door like she's supposed to and the next time she pees on the floor... ugh!! I can handle the dog crap cuz you can clean that up and the smell goes away but pee lingers and the smell never goes away even when you do clean it. I said I think you know cuz the morning after we got her, I hadn't seen the moon in days and then that morning, there it was.. there you were. You know I believe, or like to believe that when the moon shines on you it's someone in Heaven smiling down on ya. So, it was nice to see your smile again. Guess I better go, get this day 3 of my crappy vacation started. I've been up since a quarter to 5.. couldn't sleep and I had a bad headache. My headache is the same as gone. I love you dad. Miss you so. (forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. <3