September 11

Hey papa. How you doing? It's been 12 weeks since you left us. 12 weeks ago today we laid you to rest. 86 days that you've been gone. I miss you so much daddy. I miss your laugh and your talks. I miss everything about you. I miss Bobby. Kaytlin hasn't been the same since he left. I haven't seen a lot of her since than either. She doesn't understand why you had to go away. She doesn't understand why grandma has been so sad. It's hard to explain to her. None of us understand why it had to be you. We all want you back. I haven't talked to Brian a whole lot either. I think he's taking you being gone pretty hard too. 

Today is the anniversary of the attack in New York. Been 9 years. I can still remember where I was when I heard about it. I had just gotten back from my route and was sweeping out my bus at the bus barn. I heard it on the radio and couldn't believe it. I went inside and it was on Good Morning America. This last week this crazy pastor in Florida wanted to have a Koran burning today but it got canceled thank goodness. Just the news of it sent shock waves thru the world. Just don't get why we can't get along papa. Why the world has to hate this person or that group just because they are different. 

Shaun became a grandpa today. His son's wife had her baby tonight. He is just beautiful daddy. Perfect. Shaun is pretty proud. He was crying when Rafe sent him the picture of him. I wish we had money so we could send a gift card but they understand that money is tight for us. 

Money is so tight right now daddy, we can't even go buy milk or eggs. I don't get paid until the 21st. I was going to pay $500 on my house payment but I can't cuz I'm only gonna get about that much and I have 130 bux in other bills that have to go out too and we have to get some groceries. I hate being an adult sometimes daddy. Hate it a whole lot. Hmm, what else.. oh, I passed the first 3 TIPS sheets..training in production and service..  at work for the master cashier thing. Have to get 100's on them and I did. Have to do some more WBT's.. web-based training and 2 more of the TIP sheets.  I have to get master cashier dad. Have to. Will bring in about $400 more a month when I do. God knows we need the money. I must get to bed. I have to be up at 430 in the morning. I love you papa. (forehead kiss) Miss you so much!! Talk to you in a little bit. <3