September 1

Hey papa.. How have you been? I've been OK. I still miss you so insanely much. I went to see Susan on Monday. She's really nice. She listened and gave me some info to read. Also told me that you've left quite a legacy for me to follow. I showed her your picture and she said that you look like a colorful character, someone that just invited the world in. You certainly did, you never knew a stranger. She told me that looking at you she can tell you walked with God. She told me that me writing this blog and that video I made you was a good thing. That I'm immersing myself in the pain and grief and letting myself experience it and that's the beginning of healing. I'm still crying everyday but I'm gonna be OK, one day. She wants to see me again but not sure when.

I started my new job on Tuesday. So far, so good. I wanted to call you so bad yesterday and tell you about my day. I got home from work and turned on my computer and watched that video I made you and cried and cried. They said I did wonderful for my first day and they even started me on the master cashier stuff.. my first day! She had told me that she was gonna have me ready in 6 weeks to test for master cashier and she wasn't kidding. I can tell you my outta shape getting older self ain't use to the being on my feet all day. My legs and feet are just screaming. Looking forward to the end of the day tomorrow cuz I'm off on Friday and my feet hurt!!! But I am happy not sitting on my butt all day and that's what I wanted. I talked to my TL from Convergys today and told her I wasn't coming back. She said she understood and wished me luck. 

So, what have you been doing this week? How many walking sticks have you got done this week? Fall is on the way. The weather has been so nice in the mornings and evening. I like spring and fall. I know you never like it too hold or cold, now it will be perfect weather all the time. I wonder if, since it's Heaven, that the weather is your version of perfect or God's.. wish you could tell me. I wish you could tell me LOTS of things. I miss you so much. Gonna go for now. I love you papa. (Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit.