Hey papa. Happy St Patty's day me darling, Happy St. Patty's day. I've been thinking about that most of the day. I remember the time you called me and left me that message. Goes through my head every St. Patty's day. I've thought about you a lot today. Today it's been 9 months since you had to go. I still don't understand why God needed you so bad but I'm doing my best to deal with it.
I've hated Thursdays since we lost you but today was especially sucky for me. Shaun was an absolute pill all day. I had to get up early for work, and then have this long boring meeting over stuff we are already aware of and then deal with Shaun drama. I had a headache from Sunday until I woke up this morning and it had gone away, then Shaun started with all his crap and it's back and won't go away again. I'm hoping I can sleep and it will go away. Right now I feel like puking so I don't know how much sleep I'm gonna get. The Shaun drama is cuz mainly he's not taking his meds like he should. He says he forgets. Yeah, whatever. He says one day that he understands and is OK with me being here until the end of July and then the next, like today, he says that I've been here long enough and need to come home now. I'm NOT living at Judy's. I've seen the forecast and no where in it did the weather man say that Hell was freezing over anytime soon. It would never, ever work. I thought of going there for a few days, thinking it would make things easier for him so he doesn't have to worry about so much coming in April for our anniversary and of course, no.. I was wrong. I recall that I married this grown man named Shaun that looks a lot like the childish version that I talked to today. Daddy, kick him in the head and make him stop being so childish and to take his meds!! This is one of those I really need you daddy days. I need to get to bed. Guess I've asked a lot this time around but I know you and the big man are tight like that so I'm sure you can deliver. I love you papa. Miss you so much even still. Just wish you could come back to us. K. Good night me darling daddy. (forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. <3
How I like to remember my dad, happy :)
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