February 11

Hi papa.. well, she gone and done it dad. She says she's doing great. I hope she really is. Aunt Norma is with her. I'm not sure what I think. I'm not sure what to say to her.  I'm upset she did it but its what she wanted to do so I hope everything is going good and stays that way. Still don't get why at 66 she felt she needed to do it when she was losing weight going to the gym. "Because I wanted to do it for over 20 years" just doesn't sound right. There's things I wanted to do for years but haven't and all is still right in my world. Maybe it's some bucket list thing. I don't know many ppl who have, "Have 85% of my stomach removed" as a bucket list kinda thing but who knows. Stranger things have happened, right? Maybe she's having a later life thing.  I still think something is going on with her she doesn't want to face or admit. She's changed so much lately. She's like a different person. Maybe it's just hard for me to see mom not as mom. Not doing the things she used to do. The things she talked about doing when she was planning her retirement. I'm happy she's living her life, doing things she wants to do, I guess I just don't understand all of them. Not that I have to. I just feel like an outsider, like everything is a big secret from me and I feel way outta the loop. I have for a long time now.  
I don't know a whole lot. Work is going OK. We had our SER yesterday and we passed. I was so scared when the lady showed up. My heart about beat outta my chest. I called the troops in and we did OK. We missed a few things we shouldn't have but we passed and Missy was happy. She told the lady I was training to be assistant manager. I was like HUH?! in my head. I mean, I guess I am but when I actually hear her say it, it still kinda shocks me. I just wanna tell her to not say such things out loud. I want assistant manager. I guess I just don't feel fully ready to take on the responsibility plus I'm worried how it'll affect Josh since he's been there so long. He doesn't want it but he does know more than I do. Guess I worry he will try running over me. I'm trying to learn all he knows so I can step into things when it's time with the confidence that I can. I know I can. Its just learning all I need to, to be prepared. I'm gonna get there though dad. I hope I make ya proud even though you're not here.
Joe is working. He went in at 3. They told him they were closing at 6 cuz we have some weather moving in but he's still there. Guess they changed their minds. We need the money so it's all good. They are about to work him to death though. The new shift leader cuts way too many ppl and it always leaves Joe in the kitchen closing alone and they are still really busy and he has everything to still do to go home. I told him he should talk to the GM and see what can be done cuz that's just not right to leave him with so much to do by himself. He works so hard. He's a good man daddy. Takes good care of your baby girl.  I enjoy every minute we spend together. Every single one. He is an absolute blessing to me. :) I still think it was a God n daddy thing I got him. So thanks again for sending him this way. He's made me nothing but happy since day 1. :)
Oh yeah, the weather. We're supposed to get up to 5 inches of snow and ice too. They've closed most of Georgia, I'm not kidding. We got like 2 inches a couple weeks ago and it paralyzed Atlanta. Kids were sleeping at their schools or stuck on buses cuz they couldn't get home. It was re-donk-Q-Less!!! Ppl suffer from chicken little syndrome around here when it comes to the weather. The mention of the "s" word and store shelves are bare, schools are closed before the first flake falls from the sky. I think the kids have been to maybe a week of school since classes resumed in January because of the weather. Just glad I don't have a school kid cuz I'd be one mad mom. I was going to get to see Bubby but he ran outta hours before he got here so he had to stop in Monteagle. He did his loads and picked up another and got outta Dodge before the weather hits. Maybe next time. Don't know nuffin else. I love you papa. Miss you so much. (forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit.

 I enjoyed every moment we got to spend together.