January 15

Hi papa. Wish you could tell me how you are doing. Wish I could call heaven n talk to you. I'd call you every week, just like I used to. I so need to talk to you about mom. I don't know what's going on with her. I mean, she's fine but idk daddy, she's just into so many new things. Things that have me scratching my head wondering what happened to my mom. I think she's still looking for things to keep her busy so she doesn't have time to think about things. She's always found things to stay busy. Even more so since you left. She's working on becoming a chaplain. I mean, it's a noble thing to do but seems out of character for her. I mean, she's a good person, always has been, it's just odd for me to hear she's becoming a chaplain. I think of Rick or John. Not my mom. Not saying she can't do it, it's just odd for me. When she moved to Illinois she was going to find a church and be a pew sitter. shes way past pew sitter. She's still going to have that damn surgery. Still breaks my heart. Makes me worry so much about her. I just don't understand why all of this started. She says she's wanted it for 25 yrs. She wants to tuck in her shirt. I just don't understand why she can't just change her diet and keep going to the gym. She was supposed to retire and have fun. Not start a new life. She has me more concerned for her than before she retired. I just don't wanna lose her daddy. I don't think I could handle losing her anytime soon. 

Me n Joe are doing good. He still makes me so very happy. He treats me like a queen. I still at times have a hard time accepting that he truly loves me and wants nothing but my happiness. S never wanted that, never was good to me like Joe is. I don't know what I did to deserve such a wonderful man loving me. I thank the good Lord above for Joe everyday. He is one of my greatest blessings. 

Work is going ok. Have SERs coming up. Hate them, we clean, prepare and wait forever for the person to show up. It's somebody new too. Hear they are more thorough than who we had before. Just hope it goes well whenever it is. Things around here are meh. We have some tenants who have been letting her family stay with them and I've told them repeatedly they can't be there. Denny wrote up something for us to give him saying he's in default of his lease and they must leave. They haven't been home today to deliver it. I'm a little worried about what'll happen after we deliver it. The stepdad is a real jackass. We think he broke my antenna off my car. Can't prove it though. I also have a broken windshield. Last week coming back from Rome I was following a semi and he kicked up a rock and it hit my windshield. Can't afford to fix it so it'll have to wait. 

Don't know much else. I still miss you terribly. Wish you were here. The world's gone crazier since you left but I'm sure you're able to see all that from Heaven. Guess I'll go. I love you daddy (forehead kiss). Talk to you in a little bit. 

 Love you so much dad.