February 12

Hey papa. Here's what's been happening. Let's see.. made it to Illinois to see mom. We started the day with a stop in Murfreesboro for a Scentsy thing. It was kinda neat but way boring. I got some kewl stuff though. We left the thing early cuz I wanted to get to mom's before dark, by dark and holy hanna.. we got lost and a 4 hr trip took us almost 8. I was sooooooo mad! Our directions said to merge toward 65 and we missed the next step saying get back on 24. So we took 65 all the way up and had to boogie back to 64 and then we finally were back on track. It was quite irritating. There was road construction in Nashville and we got locked into this one lane for 65 but thought we were going right so didn't think anymore about it until I passed exit 81 on 65 and it wasn't the exit I wanted. We rented a truck to go get the bed. It was costly but the truck was nice. It was a 2013 F 150 with ALL the bells and whistles. It was NICE. Pirelli tires, back up camera, Sirius radio, power seats. Woo.. Joe was in love. Got to mom's about 930. Felt so bad we were late cuz she had cooked us a yummy dinner. That roast with the mushroom gravy and corn casserole and cinnamon chocolate sheet cake. Her blood pressure is up and I'm worried about her. Especially now since she's all by herself. I mean, she has Auntie just a couple blocks away but she's just there in this little house, alone. I worry about her so much that she might have a stroke or fall and no one would know or I don't know, something. I worry she's not going to enjoy being retired, that she'll get bored and depressed cuz she's not working. Hopefully after she gets her house together she'll find something to spend her time on. It was good to see her even though it was a very short, too short of a trip. I wanna get some time to go up there and just be with her. Hang out with her like I used to but don't know when that will happen. Since Joe can't drive it'll be kinda hard to leave town cuz we both won't always be able to be off the same time. Still trying to get my night schedule back. Funny cuz when I worked at East Ridge I did nothing but days and wouldn't do nights but when I got to Lee Highway I got put on nights and like it. She keeps giving me excuses as to why I can't be on nights and it's all bunk. She is just mad at Matt and doesn't wanna work with him. He needs days, I need nights so I don't see why she won't. She tells me I can't work with Joe but then scheduled me to work with him tomorrow night. Makes no sense to me.
She asked me if I was interested in moving up to assistant manager. Told her I had to think about it. Yes, it's more money but I'm one of those stupid ppl who'd rather be happy then rich. I like the position I'm in at the moment. Think I'll just stay where I'm at for now. Probably a mistake but it's my mistake. Comes with just a little more responsibility but its practically stuff I'm already doing. We had a manager meeting the other day and she tried to feed us this BS of we have to be on call 24/7 and sleep with our phones. Hmm, my thoughts on that are.. I'm not an EMT, fireman, policeman, nurse or doctor and I do have a life and other responsibilities outside of Krystal. She also tried to tell us that we couldn't have a 2nd job. Being apartment mgrs. we get $200 off our rent off the top and when I'm off we have apartments to clean, show, rent to collect, etc and I can't not do that stuff if I want that 200 off. Mom says I need to decide what I want. Think I have. I've seen Robin's true colors and they are ugly. I'll just stay where I'm at and do what I'm doing. Also think I'll start looking and applying for other jobs. There has to be something out there, some place.
We got tickets to go to Bristol in March. I am so excited. My first NASCAR race. Our seats are on the back straightaway on the pit side, 2 rows back.. sweet seats papa!! Wish you were here, we'd take you with us! Wouldn't it be a hoot!! I plan on doing a lot of things I always wanted to with Shaun but he never wanted to. Joe is willing to do anything I wanna do. Years ago when we I first met Shaun's sister Karen she worked for some radio station and got us in to see them practicing for time trials in Daytona. It was hella kewl and so loud. Haven't watched racing since we lost Dale Earnhardt so I guess it's time. Gonna be a blast!
I talked to Shaun the other day like a civil adult. Youda been proud.. lol. He told me that he's considering moving to Utah with Robbie because there are more opportunities there for them and his ex wife and him are talking about getting back together, yeah, like that'll work. BAHAHAHA! Whatever, if it makes him happy, whatever right?! I asked Rob if that's what he wants and he said not really but being with dad is better than being with me and Joe. Well, alrighty then. Good luck to the both of them. I'll miss Rob but I don't get to see him much now. I called the other day and asked if he wanted to hang out and he said, what for, there's nothing to do over here anyway. Hmm.. well ok.. yep, kinda hurt but he's an adult now so I can't make him do anything.  Ya know dad I was with Shaun for almost 20 years and never felt as loved as I do with Joe. Every single day he tells me how much he loves me, shows me, and every day tells me I'm beautiful. Every day. Even on the days I don't feel pretty at all. He is absolutely amazing dad. I thank God and you every day for sending him to me. Last night we were going to sleep and he hugged me and told me that I was a helluva woman and he's never been happier in his whole life. Shaun never said things like that. It's not just that stuff that makes me love him.. but he helps keep the apartment clean, he's a neat freak.. freakier than me! And he's always tinkering with things. I just love him to pieces daddy. I could go on and on about him. You woulda liked him a lot.  Don't know what else I know right now. About time for me to go get my Joey. I love you dad. (forehead kiss!) Talk to you in a little bit.