Hey Papa.. Not sure what to think dad. Shaun is telling me that he and Rob are planning on moving to Utah. Nothing is definite yet but looks like it's going to happen. Shaun is getting back together with his first wife and thinks they have a future together. I don't but maybe she's into lazy and crazy. Shaun has all the grandiose ideas of how things are gonna be in Utah and who knows, maybe things will be OK and he and Judy will work out but I don't think she knows what Shaun is really like. I mean the lazy, sleep all the time, I'll do what I want and overdo what I have no idea or business doing. Whatever. It is what it is. I just worry for Robbie. He's 19 going on 12. He has no want to do anything. Just stays in his dungeon all the time playing video games and drawing furries. Yep, he's still into that crap. Shaun has found a Larp group for him to join and some Furry group out in Utah. Rob is of course excited about that but seriously... its ridiculous lame crap. Larp is Live action role play.. like dungeons and dragons for grown ups. Shaun is still holding out that Rob is gonna get on social security. I think its a shame that Shaun has Rob believing that's all there is for him. The possibility of getting money for nothing really. Thinking that's how life is or supposed to be. Rob can work, he is able to do anything really. He just has no desire at all to get a job, even try. Shaun is totally running with the he has Asperger's thing and OK, yes, he has Asperger's.. doesn't mean the government should pay for Rob to sit on his butt cuz of it. Makes me sad, makes me feel like I somehow let him down, didn't do something right but I know dad, I did the best I could with what I had. I was a damn good mom to him. A stellar mom compared to Shaun's parenting. He lived the first 18 years of his life giving a shit little about what Rob needed, wanted, was all about. Then when I leave, then he's interested. I gave that kid whatever he wanted for the most part and tried to instill in him what life and the real world are really like. He was all gung ho and ready to go for it and then boom, he has no want to do nothing. He says it's because of me leaving and getting with Joe. OK, fine.. if there needs to be someone to blame, let it be me but OK, blame laid.. let's move on. Get on with life in the real world. When he was growing up I didn't want him to turn out like Shaun and he has completely become his dad.
Moving on, that subject annoys the crap outta me!! I quit Krystal, finally, for good! I'm working now at Long John Silver's. Getting minimum but that's OK. I'm still working and I am happy. I really like it so far. I was thinking today how mom was so involved in the church then all that happened and y'all moved out to River of Life and she decided she was gonna be a pew sitter.. so, I think I just wanna be a pew sitter for a little while. It's awesome to go to work, do your job and leave when you are supposed to. Just later, see ya. I know it's not always gonna be fun or a great time but right now, it is. I don't know much else. I had more to tell ya but I got sidetracked and I gotta go get Joe from work so I will talk to ya after a bit. I love you papa. Miss you more than you could ever know.. well, I bet you know.. cuz I'm sure there are days you are up in Heaven wishing how much you could be here with us but I also bet that Heaven is an amazing place and anyone would be crazy to wanna leave. Just save me a place, K?! (forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit.
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