Hey papa.. Feeling bummed today. I went to a job fair for a job I really want and a friend went too. They said that if you don't hear from them by tomorrow to assume they offered the position to someone else. She already got a call back for an interview and nothing yet for me. I know it's not tomorrow yet but if she got one that quickly, sheesh! She said maybe they are doing it in rounds. Maybe. I still have my job at Krystal but they've discontinued the master cashier/production master program and the MC's and PM's can now lose their shirts if we're not doing everything perfectly. It's costing the company a lot cuz of all the ones that are in those positions. I think that we now have targets on our backs and they'll be looking for any reason to demote us. So I'm a little more than worried about my job. It would hurt a lot if I lose my extra $2. I talked to my manager about possibly being a shift leader. Not holding my breath for that though. I don't think Ray, our area supervisor, would ever ok it and don't think I could stay at East Ridge. We need more shift leaders but they always move mgmt around even if they tell you that you can stay at your home store before they get you trained. I just feel like a loser. I'm almost 40 and still have no idea what I wanna do with my life. I think about what mom said one time..by 30, you should know what you want to do with your life and be doing it. So....being almost 40 and a fricking cashier at a fast food place..yeah, it screams Loser!
Next Saturday your #1 grandson graduates. I can't even believe it dad. I so wish you were here. I'm at the point where I have to start letting go and I so don't want to. He'll forever be my baby boy. He doesn't know yet what he wants to do and that's ok. He has time and he'll figure it out. He's going to wear his boots you bought him for graduation. They said dress shoes but he wants to wear them..so I'm glad you'll be there in some way.. :) Today we had his last IEP. It was kinda bittersweet cuz we've been having them twice a school year since 2nd grade. Today during his IEP, the lady was talking about him going to college in Atlanta, and living on campus and he said, uh, yeah, I think I want to stick to a place around here. It freaks me out to be too far away from my mom. She makes me feel safe. She's home. Melted my heart. Oh daddy! You'd be so proud of him...he's got a 3.5 GPA and numerically is at 89point-something. I so so proud of him!! I think I had like a 3.2 so I got one smart cookie of a kid! I don't know if he'll get any kinda recognition for it or not but I'm hella proud. I wish we could afford to get him whatever he wants for graduation but we can't. Gonna do what we can and hope he likes it. All I can do. I don't know much else, except I miss you, still. This is one of those days I wanna just call you up and cry. Hear you tell me it's gonna be ok even though I probably wouldn't believe it then but know in the end, you're right. Guess I'll go.. I love you dad.. (forehead kiss)..talk to you in a little bit. <3
Hey dad.. so, i forgot to tell ya.. when i was thinking of applying for that job, i was praying the whole time, Lord, if its your will for me to have this job, let it be.. apparently prayer answered cuz today my friend got back from her interview and she told me that they start you at 9.50/hr and full time is 20hrs a week.. so thanx dad for reminding me who's in control, cuz it ain't me!!
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