June 9

Hey papa.. fifty one weeks. Still wanna scream, It can't be true. You can't really be gone forever! But I've had 51 weeks, 357 days to let it sink in. Maybe I don't want it to sink in. Maybe I don't wanna believe reality cuz reality sux dad. Some days are better than others but Thursdays are still hard for me. I'm taking next Thursday, Friday and Saturday off. Those are my usual days off anyway but requested them special. I don't know how next week is gonna go. Ya know that guy I told you about that I think reminds me of you, Bill? He's a real nice guy. Still befuddles me some days when he's in there. He drinks his first cup of coffee sweetened like you use to and his 2nd cup straight black. Has two eggs over medium with sausage, toast and grits.. when he orders his breakfast I just smile a little and think of you. He comes in everyday. I've started talking to him more and he doesn't make me cry seeing him anymore. 

Found out today that my days off are gonna change. She was gonna change them next week but I had to remind her to check the request off calendar. So, starting the 20th.. my days off will be Tues-Wed and Saturdays. She said its just for 3 weeks, until they come re-certify me then it will go back to what they are now. I like my days off together. Kinda nice to have 3 straight days off. My 10 hr days kick my booty and by Wednesday my feet are killing me. I have to get some new shoes. Shaun said we will as soon as we can afford them. So, hmm.. the 5th of Never it looks like. He wants to take Boo to Florida if he can for a little while this summer. With Boo out until September 6th, makes for a very long summer and we wanna get him outta the house. He just stays in his room with his nose in his computer or video games, so not good for him. When we have him come out he flips. Asked Brian to maybe take him for a little while but he can't. He might get evicted outta his trailer and idk his work policy. He just got his job, would hate for him to lose it for having Boo with him. Plus he smokes too much, Rob would be so sick. Was gonna ask mom to take him for a few weeks but she got mad at me for my last blog so I gave up on that idea. Probably best he stay home. I don't know what she would do with him anyway.  Mom seems to get mad at me a lot for my blog. I'm having a talk with you and I get yelled at for what I tell you. Think you could maybe send me a bigger stick, I can't quite reach the bottom of the pot.. lol.. don't know much else. Gonna go get a shower and go to bed. There are storms in mom's area.. go keep an eye on her, k?? I love you daddy. Talk to you in a little bit. <3