February 28

I sure miss you daddy. 

(Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. 

December 20

Hi papa. Mom and Auntie have arrived! Aunt Norma brought mom down cuz she hit a deer last week. Did quite the doozy to her car but thank the heavens she's OK. Mom will be here for 3 weeks, thru Christmas and New Years, auntie must go home tomorrow. :(   She brought Snick too. He's getting old papa. I hope he has several years left but sadly I'm not so sure. He's such a sweet boy. 

I don't know a lot. Work is going OK. I'm so liking it daddy. Thru Christmas I have 40 hours but the week after I drop to 31. :( But I'm still gainfully employed and still gonna do my best. I think they like me well enough. If they drop below 30 ima talk to Cindy and see if I can get more by any chance. Joe is having a tough time at his work. Lack of communication. Other managers are stealing money. The GM doesn't do her job. They are incredibly short handed. He wants to quit so bad but he knows he doesn't have many other options at this point. He gets so mad and says he's had enough and wants to quit but then he'll calm down and tries again. I'm proud of him that he keeps trying but I know how awful fast food is. I wish so bad that the higher ups knew what Trish n Sam were doing. They take about $200 every day. By doing voids mainly. Trish has a drug problem and will sometimes keep the deposit longer than she should so she can use that money to get her pills. Then when Matt screams about a missing deposit she hurries n gets it in the bank and says she forgot. I wanna tell them, him, someone but it's not my place. Joe was so mad the other day that he told me to tell him but I didn't. 

I don't know much more. Just living life and being happy. I miss you papa. So much. I love you. (Forehead Kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. 

November 22

Hi daddy. Doing good. Wish I could call you, see you instead of just feel you around me, think about you. Memories are all we got left and they are some very wonderful ones. I'm thankful for every minute we got to spend together. Every time I saw you I was convinced it was the last time. I'm glad I kept your voicemails too. I'm really liking it at Walmart. It's so fun. I thought it'd be harder than it is but its so easy. There are a few things I'm still learning but I'll get it. 

Mom is heading to Richard's this week for Thanksgiving. Hope she has a good time. Hope he's nice to her. I told him he's basically dead to me. I'm so done with him. He's such a pompous ass. I know you guys would rather we just get along but hard to do when he asks like he's superior when he's clearly not. He acts like he has this big important secret life when he's just a maintenance man for the school district that has a wife and kids. He tells mom he doesn't want me in his business. HA! Like he has any business I'd want to be in. What happened to just knowing your brother/sister was OK, just being family. I was thinking back and I think since he lived in Liberal right before he got with Traci, he was dating this black girl, is when things got weird with him n I. There's only so many times you can make amends before you say heck with it. Ridiculous he's like that anyway, that you have to walk on egg shells just right to be on his good side. It is what it is. I still have a brother, named Brian. He can be a jerk and talk incessantly at times about nothing but I love him. 

I have to work on Thanksgiving. Don't think it's gonna be fun but it's money. I like the lady in HR. Her name is Cindy. She gave me some extra hours for this next week. She thinks I can go far if I apply myself. Said maybe by summer I can be a CSM. Idk, right now I'm just enjoying being a cashier. Don't know much else. I miss you papa. I love you. (forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. 

November 12

Hi daddy. Been a bit since I wrote you. I started a new job. I'm at Walmart now. Hopefully my last stop for a while. A long while. So far I'm loving it, it is so much fun. Ask me again in 6 months. Heck, 6 weeks. Hopefully I'll say the same thing. Me n Joe are doing great. I love you daddy. (Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit. 

September 30

Hi daddy. How are you? I'm doing good. Work is there. Deanna is ready to move me up but Joe doesn't want me to be a mgr there so idk what ima do or what will happen. He wants me to find a job over here in our area. I'd like that too but I'm not gonna even consider it until after I go see mom. Things around here are ok. Joe and I are great. He got promoted to assistant manager Monday. He's worked almost 24 hrs in two days. He did 11 yesterday get got called back in for another hour, then today he works just over 10 hrs. I just hope he can handle the hours, the stress, the stuff that needs to be done here for Denny. Doesn't run himself thin. I gotta get used to him having to close a lot. He's got 4 closes this week outta his 5 shifts. So not fair, there's other mgrs but two of them are mother and daughter, what mommy does, daughter soon does the same. Meaning Joe gets the short end of the stick all the time cuz of them. 

I so wish you had got to meet Joe and he could have gotten to know you. Daddy, you'd love him. He works so hard for us, takes such good care of us. He's into carpentry and you two would have gotten along famously. The Lord sure blessed me with a wonderful husband. We leave each other notes some days when we won't see each other cuz of our schedules..mine today simply said I love you, have a great night at work. His said, I'm special and the reason he's moving up the ladder. Not those exact words but you get the point. Made me tear up, to have someone that loves me like he does. Never had that before. It feels wonderful. I sure miss you, I wish I could call you. See you, hug you. 

I'm worried about Jake. He's been sleeping a lot the last few days, sleeping in the oddest places. Behind the front door. In the bathtub. In front of the refrigerator. I really hope he's ok, I wish it didn't cost so much to go to the vet. I know if I took him they'd want to run blood tests, etc and we can't afford that. All I can do is put it in God's hands. Past my bedtime. I love you dad. (Forehead kiss) talk to you in a little bit. 

September 8

HI papa. Nothing really going on. Work ok. Things with Joe are still great. Around the apartment is going ok. Some ppl getting evicted. That's the part I like. When they think they know more than me. And I'm like boom...holla! Joe justs goes day to day, doesn't bother him who does what. I try to keep Denny's rules in force. We've been here almost three years. Kinda nice to be setting roots again. I thought my life would always be what it was. Miserable. Never imagined I could be this happy. Always wanted to be and now I am.

Planning on going to mom's next month. It'll be for Aunt Norma n Uncle Al's 50 anniversary. I guess there's a big to do. I wasn't exactly invited but I'm going, I'm so excited all the family is gonna be there n they can meet Joe. Wish things were different and we'd be celebrating yours n mom's 50th soon. But there will be great celebration again some day. Better than a 50th anniversary. Bubby is/was visiting mom this past weekend. He called and told me mom needed me. Said her house needs me. I told him it was mom's business how she keeps her house. If I was 3 hours instead of 6-1/2 I'd possibly be able to make it up there more often but being 6.5 away and having a man that worries about me like he does, it'd be an issue. He doesn't like me going places, especially out of town, without him. I'll see when I go up there how things are. If mom needs me, she'll tell me. I think. 

I don't know much else. Won't keep ya. I'm sure you got a big fish to catch or something to do. I love you so much daddy. Miss you too. Some days are better, some are harder but I always miss you. (Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit.

August 21

Hi daddy...

Love n miss you, (forehead kiss). Talk to you in a little bit.