November 4

Hi dad. Welp, we didn't get thru to her. She's gonna do it. Makes me sad. Makes me worry even more about her. I just don't understand why at 65 she wants to have 90% of her stomach cut out. I can't believe the dr would ok it, heck, even suggest it. It's just crazy. I told her that I support her, I do. I don't support her getting this surgery. I don't think she needs it. I don't know why the dr wouldn't try suggesting putting her on a strict so many calories a day diet, no sugars, no white flour, no starchy foods. Some type of exercise daily. I just think there are so many other options. I love momma so much. I just wish I could understand why she feels this is her only option. I told her I'm gonna be there when she has the surgery and I'm gonna try to stay a few days after. Guess it depends on the weather if I can go and how long. I wish she'd just wait until next spring. I don't understand why the rush. Makes me think its already been in the works or something and she just didn't wanna tell me. She's got appointments on the 27th to make sure she can have the surgery so now she's not going to be here for Thanksgiving which makes me really sad. She said she can still come the week before or after but it's not gonna be the same thing. I was so looking forward to taking the time off work to spend with her but now I can't, I'll just have my usual days off. Its been 3 yrs since I last had Thanksgiving with her. I gotta talk to Joe first and see what he thinks. 

The past few days at work have sucked massively. We've been so busy because of the 1st of the month. Luckily the ppl I work with are pretty good when we get in a pinch. We work together as a team but there's always a few things that don't go how I have them in my head, then I get irritated. But that's life I guess. This job is actually one I rather enjoy. Not near as much stress as Krystal. Slim to none most days, in fact. Today we started soups and salads. I don't think ima like them. They are so time consuming and I don't know how some ppl will react when we tell them it'll be 5 minutes for a sandwich cuz we have to cook the main ingredient to order. Then I think about Sundays, we're gonna get slaughtered with the soups n salads. A guy from corporate was there all day. Tried my best to keep our i's dotted and our t's crossed. Guess I did ok. 

Anyway, today just isn't a good day. I'm gonna find some dinner, pout and maybe take a nap before Joe gets home. I sure could use one of your hugs today. I love you daddy. (Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit.