November 18

Hey papa. My computer died on me so have to do this on my iPad. Anyway, I got my job back at Krystal. I got moved to a different one but so far it's not bad. The crew definitely needs direction but I'm up to the task. I asked this one kid working yesterday to do this n that...the stuff he needed to so he could leave and you'd think I asked him something major. He was not happy with me but I'm there to manage, not make friends. The crew have a habit of clocking out when their time is up without even asking if they can go. That is soooo gonna stop, especially when I have to take over the shift. Joe is supposed to get moved over there with me but idk when. Hopefully soon. I've been getting my crew outta there about 20 minutes after close but with Joe, heck, we may be outta there even sooner. Robin is my new boss. So far, I think she's ok. I hear she pays dirty though. Idk, I hope not. So over the drama that was at East Ridge. She tells me my closes have been great. I know that opinion may not last but I'll take the compliments for now.
Money is still crazy tight. I know it's my own fault. We're not gonna have a Thanksgiving dinner cuz we don't have the money. Joe says he understands but I know he's disappointed. Makes me feel so bad. We won't even have enough to pay bills next payday. Idk what we'll do but can only pay what we can pay. I just can pray that check gets issued soon. Mom said its in the judges hands now but hopefully he'll sign off on it like already and it gets sent out next week. Hey, a girl can dream... And pray! I never shoulda quit but I did. Just thankful I was given another chance. Now I just need to run with it and make the best of it.
Shaun is still being his Jekyll n Hyde self. Thursday Rob met with his new counselor and after he got back I guess he was upset so he went for a walk. I had called and asked to talk to Rob and Shaun said he was out walking. I went and found Robbie and we went and parked in a parking lot and talked. He said he misses his 'mommy' and doesn't understand why me and Shaun can't stop being so immature and get back together. He doesn't like Shaun's new cow girlfriend and daughter living there which I can understand. Rob said he didn't like her there and so S threatened to kick Rob out cuz of it. I think S needs to be thinking of Rob too, not just how he feels and his own selfish wants. We've told Rob countless times he's welcome to stay with us but he wants to stay at the house. Plus he doesn't like Joe. I keep telling him Joe is a good man but he doesn't like him cuz he took me away from him and Shaun. I guess I just don't get how at 18 he's not comprehending how things work out and acts like he's still 6 and thinks we'll be apart for a while but work things out and get back together. Sorry Rob, soooo not happening this time.
The divorce is Wednesday and I'm looking forward to it. Seems wrong almost to be looking forward to it but I'm finally there, to that point, that I'm so over it point. I just wish Rob was handling it better. He acts like me being happy is wrong. Shaun told him I abandoned him and he believes it. I wish Shaun could just be a dad and not this massive ass he's been as of late and poison Rob with his BS. Think that's all I know right now. Guess I'll go for now. I love you papa. (Forehead kiss). Talk to you later.