July 12

Hey papa.. want you to be on the look out for someone new.. his name is Terry Ford. He got there on Saturday. He was only 52. Had a massive heart attack. I guess he had been in the Krystal Saturday morning for coffee and then went home and told his brother he was going to go work on his scooter in the garage and his brother went out a little while later and found him dead. Couldn't imagine. I'm thinking I might go to the funeral today, show some support. Show the family ppl at the K gave a crap about him and will miss him. Boo might go with me too. Hope so, cuz I don't wanna fly solo. But if you could be looking for him, show him the ropes, he's a really nice guy.
Found out that my name really, really has been submitted this time to who needs to know so I can get that 'promotion' at work. Hope it happens soon cuz money is tight and that extra couple bux an hour will sure help. So sick of having like nothing left after bills are paid and trying to get thru Shaun's thick skull that we can't go buy every damn thing he wants cuz we have some money. Trying to figure out how to make the 100 bux I have last two weeks and stretch it to have enough food on the table and gas in the cars. He hates that I pay the bills first before I worry about us. Bills are first priority, we have to have utilities and a place to live and the car to get me to the job. About to go get some groceries and pay a couple bills now. Being an adult SUX major. Just wanted to stop and say hi and I miss you.
I haven't seen you much in the last few days so I hope that means that you've been hanging with mom. She really needs you dad.. needs to know that you are still there. If she'd slow down a little she'd see you, feel you. I worry so much for her. I called her the other night to tell her about Terry and before we hung up she was crying so hard.. broke my heart. Just wanted to be there to comfort her but I couldn't. She was having a nothing and everything wrong kinda day. I've had my share so I know how that feels. I know that you are probably there cuz you n her were like two peas in a pod.
I better get moving along.. busy day and I'm wasting daylight. Love you so much dad. Wish Heaven could send you back, so many ppl here still need you. I love you dad. Talk to you in a little bit. <3