December 12

Hey dad. It's me dad. I miss you so bad. Haven't been here in a while. I've had things to say but just get so busy with everything else. I wish I could call you. Hear your voice. Summer into fall was ok. We went to see mom in October. Surprised her n stayed a couple days. Helped her with some stuff. Joe had a job roofing but the 50 year old Joe felt everyday of it as opposed to the 20 year old Joe that could do it all day everyday it not bother him. He was in Virginia n gone a few days. He hated it he said and wanted to quit. I told him to do what was best. He got a new job at Chili's. He's a cook. He likes it. He brings me food from there. Idk if you'd like it. It's like Tex mex kind of stuff. Mom doesn't like it. 

Mom just told me she's coming for Christmas! I'm so happy cuz I thought she'd be alone. I'm so happy she won't be now. Weather permitting of course. She's going to work at H&R Block. She just got done with a tax class n was top of the class of course. 

The other day Uncle Dennis wanted my address to send me something n I got it today. It was a card n a picture of you n mom. You're standing in front of gma n gpas house. Idk when it was taken. But it's you. Daddy, he sounds like you on the phone n writes like you. Yes, it makes me cry. He calls me baby girl. I don't think he knows the feelings it stirs n how it makes me cry. I wanna talk to him but it's so hard. I haven't talked to him in years because of it. It's not his fault. It's me. He's so lonely in Topeka. He said he's just existing. That makes me sad. Guess money wise he's not doing great either. I wanted him to come this summer but he said he couldn't afford to. I'd like to get him down here to see me n Aunt Clara. Stay with each of us a couple days. I gotta see if I can make it happen. 

Idk much else. Work is going ok. I got written up for not looking in a box all the way. Makes me mad cuz I opened it, just not all the way. Supposedly we lost money cuz it was the wrong tree in the box. It was heavy like it should have been. Idk dad. I'll cry if I lose my job especially over something dumb. So now I open everything like its Christmas. Even if ppl tell me they just bought it. 

Guess I'll go. I love you daddy. (Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little while. 

I miss you so much. :(