December 20

Hi daddy. Christmas is almost here. Me n Joe aren't celebrating. Haven't even decorated. I have to say, it's actually been quite nice not freaking about getting the perfect gift. After the holidays we're going to go shopping. Get what we want so no disappointments. Mom is having a hard time she said this year. Idk why. She really misses you, as do I. Time seems to be flying by. This next June it'll be 5 years. Wow daddy. I wanted you to stay forever. You were supposed to be invincible. Guess the good Lord had other plans. I hope you're doing something really great up there.

I don't know much. Mom was here for thanksgiving and that was nice. It was a really nice visit, really nice having her here. We went to some quilt stores, no exploding heads. Got some ideas for the quilt I'm making for Joe. Found a pattern I liked and luckily he liked it too. I followed the instructions, measured n remeasured and when I laid it out I'm off in a few places. Joe thinks it's a pattern error n not me. Good answer, huh? Yes, you definitely would have loved him. I think the quilt has too much orange in it but Joe likes it. I suggested we add some white but he doesn't want any. Mom got sick on turkey day. I felt bad cuz I didn't know what she needed. She spent the whole day in her room. Joe was watching football but also cuz she was sick. I almost called auntie cuz I was so worried about her. 

Work is going ok. We're super busy right now cuz of the holidays but this too shall pass. So many party trays to do, our hot line is pretty popular which at times can get aggravating. But I enjoy the job. Some parts more than others. I got to work in the bakery for a little while today. I like working over there. :) it's much more relaxed, not as busy as the deli part. It was an easy day. Joe is wanting to find a new job. Out of the food industry. Can't say I blame him. He went to this place that installs spray foam insulation. Filled out an application but he doubts he'll hear anything. Feel bad for him cuz Joe is such a hard worker, and wants to do well for both of us but he just can't seem to get a chance anywhere besides fast food. I think he's doing fine. He provides for us, bills are paid n we got food to eat so I think we're good. :) 

I went to the dentist a couple weeks ago cuz my tooth was hurting me. They took full X-rays n recommend that I get all my top teeth pulled n get a full top denture n a bottom partial. For $6000, yeah, only 6K. Uh huh, not much... I don't even think so daddy. At 42, I do not wish to have my teeth gone n become gumby. Heck to the no. Especially to the tune of $6000!! I went over the invoice of what they plan to do last night and there's double charges on there, a charge for an expensive toothbrush I don't want or need, charges for procedures I think are unnecessary or could wait. I whittled it down almost $2000. I'm going to get a copy of my X-rays n get a 2nd opinion. The tooth that was hurting has stopped hurting me. I've been looking at other options if I must get them pulled. Dental implants...and they too are a no. They put a titanium screw in your jawbone that...wait...stop there...the thought of that makes my knees weak. They'd have to have me so out of it to even get me to sit still to do that. So...I'll wait for the 2nd opinion then decide what to do. All I can do. Ok. I'm officially out of things to tell you. Your baby girl is doing ok. I'm happy and Joe takes great care of me, we take great care of each other. I love you so much daddy. Not a day goes by I don't think of you, wish you were here, wish I could call you. I see things n think how it woulda made you smile or laugh when I tell you about it. I miss our phone calls. If I don't get back on here on Christmas tell Jesus I said happy birthday and eat a big piece of cake for me as you attend the grandest of birthday parties. I love you. (Forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit.