April 3

Hey papa. How ya be? I'm alright. Today woulda been mine and Shaun's 20th had we stayed together. Glad God had other plans for me. That sounds mean but don't mean it to be. The guys left Monday morning at about 6. We got up about 430 to get over there and say goodbye. It was hard to let Rob go but I did. I cried like a baby of course. I was hugging him and he said, Mom, stop you're breaking my spine. Shaun hugged me before he left and told Joe to take good care of me. Joe told him, I already am. Joe and I stuck around after they left and cleaned up a little until we both were too tired to think straight. Didn't get to go back to bed cuz the landlord came and we had things to take care of. So Monday made for a very long day for both of us. Talked to Rob a little Monday and yesterday. He was very tired of being in the car. Said the trip was turning out being bad for him cuz he kept getting hurt on the way. The car was so packed, there was like no room at all in the car. Rob had to leave quite a bit behind and wants it shipped to him. I'm trying to figure out what he needs right away and what can wait. It's gonna take weeks to get it all boxed and shipped. Ima miss Rob so much but I'm hoping this move to Utah is somehow a good thing for him and he can find something he enjoys doing and will get a job and all that. I worry he's gonna get pushed to the side but pray Shaun isn't that self absorbed and does that to him.
Joe's divorce is next Wednesday. I am so excited, so is he! We have been waiting for it very impatiently and for a while.  After that then we can get married and that's the very, very exciting part. Still don't have anything planned but hoping to get it figured out quick and then let ppl we want there know the details. Sure wish you could be here in person but I know that you still will be in spirit. Will be very small but hopefully still nice. Joe is so the right thing for me. So the right one. He is so good to me dad. So good for me, with me. He is my absolute everything. I don't think I could get any luckier if I tried. I don't know much else.  Just wanted to say hello and I'm always thinking about you. I love you papa. (forehead kiss) Talk to you in a little bit.